soul searching. brain thinking. bad experiences. finally, i decided. other than studies, i jus goanna do anything 2 b happy. if i'm faced wif anything, i'll jus do ANYTHING; so long i'm happy. and i'm glad enough knowing there is sm1 who'll b there. IF i'm re-elected again, i'll c the situation. if i've 2 do smt i dun like or 2 b forced wif doing anything i dont like then i'll jus leave the post. i dun care anymore. ever since the beginning of the year i've been trying to let go of the post but ms picca dun let. now i seriously doesnt wan 2 care anymore. O is the pirority now. i dunnoe how many times have i cried over those matters. how many times have i tink whether i've done wrong. how many nights have i lost my sleep because of her. since she's still like this, wad more can i do? i dun even wish to care anymore yes, i'm blessed wif frens and everything but who can ever read my thoughts and understand the pain i'm going thru who can i talk freely to and tell them wad i'm feeling none none none either i know they will b stuck btw us or i dun wan them 2 b distracted i've absolutely no one 2 talk

i still brainwashing myself. tellin me tt we shall NOT b tgt but u'll b sm1 i cared for i shall tink of u like.. a listener;a friend; a sibling and there's nth else i shld tink of at least for now